My name is Jamie Nicole. For those of you who may not know me, I am Stephanie's assistant here at Called2Capture Photography. As much as I love being behind the camera, it took a lot of time, reassurance, and personal growth to be okay with being in front of the camera. This is my story.
Growing up, from infancy through elementary school, I practically lived for the camera. I would always love having my photo taken. Anytime a flash would go off, my head would turn towards the source and a smile would light my face as my cheeks nearly pushed my eyes closed.
But it didn't last. Throughout middle school and high school, my body went through some drastic changes. I became more than overweight, got braces, and went through some serious style alterations. I looked in the mirror and absolutely hated what I saw. The thoughts, words, and actions of others heavily influenced me. Societal standards got inside my head. What I saw in magazines, social media, television, billboards, and movies dictated how I saw myself. All of the lies spewed by the media had taken residence where the love that I had for myself once lived.
While I spent years stuck in what I thought was the worst body, things changed in the late stages of my high school experience. The weight started dropping. I was going down and down in clothing sizes by the week: but the love I had for myself continued to drop, too.
Growing up until that point, I had always assumed, "If I could just lose the weight, I'll be good. I'll be happy." But I found that wasn't true. I never would've thought that dropping over 70 pounds wouldn't make me happy… But it didn't. The years of telling myself that I was not good enough had become permanently ingrained into my head, and the lies weren't going away with the weight loss.
Until I had a photo session that changed how I perceived myself.
Before working here at Called2Capture Photography, I had the honor of being photographed by Stephanie. For the first time in years, I loved the images I saw of myself. I wasn't the monster I had once believed I was - that I had made myself out to be. Stephanie showed me that there was nothing that should have ever held me back from being photographed. I could see myself as I truly was; who I have always been beneath my skin and the false beliefs I held for so long. I was finally set free.
If there was one thing I could go back and do differently throughout the years of constant internal and external bashing, I wouldn't have hidden myself away. I look back and all I can see are many missed memories and opportunities. I simply wish that I would have chosen to live my life more than I was.
There are so many other women out there who are held captive to the same lies I once believed. Stop waiting until you "lose the weight" or until you feel "good enough". It's time to stop hiding and letting years or decades pass without having a single photograph you love of yourself. You're perfect the way you are NOW. I have always been beautiful and deserve to exist in photos, and so do you.
Contact us today to schedule a consultation and celebrate your beauty!